Thursday, October 29, 2015

One day it'll just get better. There's usually no reason or explanation, you just wake up a brand new person...

A Brand New Person
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How many times have you claimed true love for someone and how many times have you stood by your loved one's side through all their trials and errors? Although the reciprocation of love and devotion were limited, you made all types of sacrifices in your life so that they'd feel safe and loved. And as the decades wear on, the real person emerges and you start learning that the images you had of your relationship were broken. Yet, you continued to hang on for the love you once had because you're now deep into a full blown life of obligation and responsibilities of marriage, kids, family, and walking away is the most difficult option. 

How many times have you held love for someone when they were no longer physically there? Even though you felt like you were losing your mind holding on to feelings for and the belief in that person's words and character that had once caught your eyes, captured your heart, and opened the gates to future possibilities. Surely it was because you believed the love was real. Or was it because you felt you needed to make sure the portrait you had of them wasn't a lie you told yourself? Yet, you fought to hold on, looking for any reason deep within as to why the love had come undone. 

How many times have you made excuses and come up with reasons that, while caught up in the experience, felt like an easy fix to mend your broken heart from all the arguments, rejections, and silent treatments, so that you could wake up to another day of more of the same heartaches and disappointments? Only to prove all the years and puddle of tears were a waste of time and energy.

The truth is, we don't attract what we want. We attract what our subconscious mind will tolerate. The golden rule of love is: love yourself first, before you love anyone else. The person who'll love you will love you the same way you love yourself. If you've learned your lesson from your past relationships, if you learn to fall in love with yourself first (please don't get this confused with being cocky or being a selfish asshole)—I mean love and respect yourself―you'll upgrade in the next relationship. In the meantime, you have to forgive yourself. 

Once you stop tolerating less than the love you'd give to yourself, the pain will be gone and you won't be angry anymore. One day it'll just get better. There's usually no reason or explanation, you just wake up a brand new person that's worth fighting for.
                       
―LRAEBROWN 

On Miley Cyrus

You know that saying "Don't judge a book by its cover”?
Well, it applies to this young lady.

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I read a comment on social media pertaining to Miley Cyrus that stated, “It’s just a damn shame she has to project such a vile persona to get attention. It speaks volumes of Hollywood’s ilk.”  

It’s not the “Hollywood ilk” that’s making her do this. The show you’re seeing Miley Cyrus put on right now is just an act, folks! 


Miley Cyrus has done, and is still doing, a lot of good with her money for underprivileged teens, runaways, teens with addictions and mental health issues who are in trouble with the law, or have problems at home and need a place to go. http://www.happyhippies.org

There are people who’ll excuse her work by saying, "Oh, she’s just doing that as a tax write-off!" Have you ever founded or run such an organization?
If you've ever founded, facilitated, or run a program with teens, or kids of any adolescent age, you know it is emotionally, financially, and mentally taxing, and time-consuming! Any organization for children is simply not just a "Tax Write-Off".

Miley Cyrus’s current persona attracts and relates to many of today’s kids who find themselves in bad situations, and to whom her former persona as Hannah Montana, a wholesome teenager, wouldn't have appealed. That would be like Macaulay Culkin only coming out in public as the character he portrayed in Home Alone. He tried that and it didn't work out for him in the long run. 
Let me ask you something, when someone posts a "Go You, You're a Badass!” meme or quote on social media that inspires you, don't you relate to them precisely because of their persona or the feeling that they can relate to you?



Maybe she is maintaining the Hollywood fakery, but she’s doing her part to provide a much needed service for disadvantaged teens. Not all teens, and maybe not your teen, but this is where her heart sees the need, and this area does need it. 
There are some that will say “Sorry, I tend to disagree. I don't let my children watch crap and what she shows is crap. I commend her for helping the underprivileged, but, maybe she should also teach them the meaning of ‘wholesome’ instead of teaching them to be sluts.” 
Then don’t. 
Don’t let your children see her crap. 
They’re your kids and you have the right to instill in your children what you want to instill in them. You have that right and responsibility as their parent.
 Don’t take it so damn personally, though, as if her existence stops you from doing your job for your children.

And don’t forget, Miley Cyrus was a role model for many kids and did teach them what it is to be wholesome. She played that part in her Disney career as Hannah Montana. And Disney made billions off of that. Many of Hannah Montana’s concerts were sold out. Who do you think paid for those concert tickets and all the Hannah Montana merchandise? We did. The parents. 
The sad part is that when she played the part of that wholesome character, many of us parents complained and made fun of that too. We said she was “overrated” for her wholesomeness. Remember that?

People who get so upset at Miley Cyrus’s new image, or anyone alike, usually mention the word ‘role model’ and 'wholesomeness'. Children shouldn't be looking up to "celebrities" of any kind as role models! Nor is it a celebrity's responsibility to be a role model for your kid. 
Parents are solely responsible for bringing up their children and teaching them what their values are in how they live their lives. And if you as a parent have done YOUR JOB instilling your values in your children, no celebrity’s unpopular behavior should divert your children from those values that you’ve taught them and the wholesomeness that results from putting them into practice every day. 

Although Miley Cyrus has adopted this strange stage persona, I can respect the positives even if confused by the sideshow. I believe people's good can outweigh their ills. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a Miley Cyrus fan, neither are my kids. But, I actually like some of her creativity (but by no means all of it). And although I would not promote Miley Cyrus's antics to my children, it is my job as a parent, as their mother, to teach my kids how to look at the world, life, events, situations...and think, rather than just follow everyone else's judgements. We are all the sum total of our works while we are here


If people could think outside the box more often, instead of buying into what's fed to us on tv and social networks, I wonder who then would be able to manipulate our thinking and decisions for a better society? A society where there are no runaway teens, no abused or molested kids, no teenage drug and alcohol abuse, and unlimited access to treatment for children with mental health issues. Instead, we're so fucking SENSITIVE about everything on everyone's take on any matter, even when there's a positive spin! Many of us tend to look at what's in front of our faces and react to how it affects our personal lives, emotions, and values. We all do it, for our own reasons, whether right or wrong. We just focus on the subject in front of us, without really stepping back and observing the whole picture. Our culture's normality is to take everything too personally. 
Yet, we say we're all different. 
To be "different" and to evolve we have to look at logic and humanity. More importantly, we have to look at the character of a person and what that person―or that group―that government―that entity have provided for us in their resumes throughout their time. Not the spin we see on the news. We have to look at the big picture, or else we will spin out of control and into complete chaos, individually.

Times have changed and people need to change their ways of thinking, or else we'll become more sensitive to anything and everything. We’ll become humans who won't want to see past what's in front of us, purposely. And we'll never take our eyes off that screen, even if it's just to look at the good we've instilled in our children's characters.

How long will Miley Cyrus's success last in this persona? Nothing lasts forever. We all go through awkward moments in our lives. And time will tell. But I for one can name several of her contemporaries that have set worse examples, yet came out ahead. And a few we now revere as humanitarians, damn near close to "Hollywood Royalty".
Remember when Angelina Jolie infamously kissed her brother James on the lips at the Oscar in 2000? The brunette Goddess was earning quite a reputation for herself back in the late 90's and part of the early 2000. Angelina, always one to be different, sported a pair of rubber pants and a T-shirt with her guy's name written across the back in her own blood, which she had drawn herself, according to the New York Times. Remember Billy Bob Thornton,  Angelina's second spouse? Enough said. 
Jolie told Vogue in 2004, "...I think it can happen when you get involved and you don't know yourself yet." Remember Angelina Jolie when she was in her twenties?

Hollywood has sucked the souls of many. Especially when your act gets old, or once your theme is no longer popular. Unless you're like the Meryl Streep type, unless you're Oscar material—many actors/actresses in the business become B-rate entertainers. Life is fast in Hollywood, it’s a circus. The audience has a short attention span.
 And once your time’s up, it’s up, Baby! It's Hollywood folks, and Miley Cyrus has understood how to use it, for what it is.

― LRAEBROWN

Monday, October 26, 2015

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF A WRITER On Being A Mother




Someone asked me once, 
"Rae, at the end of your lifetime, what's your definition of 
a successful life?"


My answer was that I will consider having lived a successful life if all three of my kids grow up to experience:
1: Passion about, success in, and contentment with their character and the career they've chosen.
2: Never having felt they needed or wanted to drug or medicate themselves to endure life. 3: Looking back on their childhood and saying "Wow, that was fun mom and dad! And by the way, thanks for not having any substance abuse issues that you made us deal with or exposing us to your transient relationships and lovers. Thank you for showing us loyalty. Thanks for wanting to always be there for us and not being selfish." 4: Having a healthy and loving adult relationship with me and their father and constantly building and experiencing a beautiful life together. 5: Having a healthy and loving reciprocal respect for their siblings. It's not an easy task to be a parent. But what's even harder is the lifetime of regret or the excuses we'll have to swallow if our children do not get to live the serene childhood to which they're entitled. What we give up temporarily as parents is nothing compared to a lost childhood, tarnished memories, having to choose between two parents during the holidays, and a lifetime of constantly trying childhood experiences. I know we're all weak. We all have our downfalls that we hide even from people that are closest to us. We all have our daily routines that help us survive the daily grind of living. Here's the thing about parenting: it resolves itself. Children inevitably grow up into adults just like us. And just like us, our kids will need their parents as we also do, even now, as adults. As a child I grew up watching adults in their most selfish stages, where emotions, desires, and addictions overcame logic and common sense, let alone putting a child's basic needs before their own. Many people will say, "Well, what about the money and your life goal as an Author?" Let me be clear: none of the money, success, or fame will matter if I've sacrificed the gift that I've already been given, my children. And none of my words and writing will count, if I can't back it up with my own success in living. ―LRAEBROWN

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

What does doing the right thing mean?


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Do you over think, over talk, over analyze your situation, instead of just doing the right thing?




When the shit hits the fan, when the pressure gets a bit too much for our comfort, or when a simple disagreement flares up, we tend to find some form of evidence to blame "someone else" for what's not going right. Anything will validate the wrong we think "someone else" is doing. 
We tend to go on a spiraling emotional roller coaster of blame, resentment, and doubt, due to our current limitations, emotions, and insecurities. We bring up the past and lump it up with the current problem, or we get frustrated because we can't seem to make them see our point. Then, we go into the survival thinking mode of "forget it, let that someone else figure out the problem and maintain their own happiness", right? Because it's easier to put the blame and responsibility on someone else. So much for trying to maintain our lives instead of pointing fingers.

Oftentimes that 'someone else' is our significant other—the person we want to spend the rest of our lives with—our closest and most trusted friend, one of our family members, or our kid(s). 
We forget that, just because we're part of someone's daily life, they might have a different theory on the situation. We're not meant to think, feel, and be exactly alike. We don't grow, evolve, and make our relationship's bond stronger with someone when they're always in agreement with us. If it were that easy we would lose interest due to boredom. Yet, when they're not on the same page with us, we react based solely on what we're feeling, instead of love and logic...and we wonder why people fail our expectations. Some of us do this for decades without seeing a light at the end of the tunnel. 

We over think, over talk, over analyze our situation, instead of just doing the right thing. Most of the time, the answer or solution when we're experiencing a problem with someone is just simply doing the right thing. 

What does doing the right thing mean? 
• When you don't assume that someone else's agenda is meant to hurt you, instead you give someone else the benefit of the doubt that maybe, just maybe, they're going through the same emotional ride that you are on. So, you become considerate of their feelings and thought process, just like you would want someone else to be considerate with you. 

• Knowing that, just because you have your own story on how things are going to happen, or not, it doesn't mean someone else will have the same thought process and experiences that you do to come to the same theory as you. 

• When you stop expecting someone else to do the right thing, because you know damn well change in your life starts (always) with you. 

Speaking of change: everyone wants someone else to change, but nothing will change unless you (purposely) do.

―LRAEBROWN

Like amber in a fire calmly burning...


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GOLDEN
I love this chapter of my life. This calm lull that comes from being in the moment. I’m neither sad nor happy. I’m not in love or heartbroken. I’m not lonely, aching, or pining after anyone. I'm at peace, for once. There’s no yearning for the unknown. There’s no unplanned spark stirring, or the desire to light a match, or start a dance. I have no false expectations for anything. I'm at peace, for once. Like amber in a fire calmly burning, this stillness in my heart feels so golden. I think I'll savor in the moment a little longer. I'm at peace, for once.

―LRAEBROWN

Tuesday, October 20, 2015

TIME

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What price will you pay to experience every moment of your children's joy and laughter...?

How much would you pay to relive a kiss that lingered during passionate love making, and still plays in your memory like it just happened yesterday...?


What is the worth of your loved ones' time, if you were forced to bargain for their lives...?


Would you walk away from everything you owned, if it meant...if it meant you'll be with your beloved...till the end of time? 

"Experiencing time has no price." 
Some girls value the diamond watch, I value the time.

― LRAEBROWN 

When something is meant for us, it will only be for us to succeed.

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When I was younger and immature, I used to get pissed, or it would annoy me, when someone took my ideas and did something with them for their own benefit or gain.

As I got older, I realized the more I tried out my ideas, the more I would sharpen my skills and learn new ways to make them better. Till I surpassed my old ideas. No idea is original, the execution of an idea is what is original.
"Concepts are worth less than execution."
When I look back at those old ideas, I'm so glad I didn't use them, or they didn't work out for me, or someone else made use of them instead, because their only purpose was for me to hone my skills. That's all they were. The very best of all the ideas that have worked out for me, only I could have pulled off! The rest were just lessons, trials, tests, blueprints, and tools to help me master my craft. It's all part of the process of continuously evolving. 

That's the gift the universe and my life lessons have taught me.

When something is meant for us, it will only be for us to succeed. "What is meant for me will always be meant for me." ―LRAEBROWN

NOTE: I bet you're wondering why I used the portrait of The Monalisa. The Monalisa is quite possibly the most well-known piece of painted artwork in the entire world and one of the most duplicated art in our history.  Think about that.


Friday, October 16, 2015

"There's a voice within you that guides you. You have to learn to listen to that voice."

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You're tired of feeling.
You're tired of thinking. You're tired of talking and listening. You're tired of worrying and planning. You're tired of being everyone's anchor.
You're just tired of being everything to everyone around you, and then some more. You don't want to conquer, let alone start or finish anything.
You don't want to put "all" your efforts into "anything". You're just tired. You just want to be quiet—be still—be left alone! Ever have those days when you're not feeling it? You don't want to be motivated. You don't want to be happy, but you're not sad. Ever have those moments when you just sigh, and say to yourself, "I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted!"? Not that anything's wrong or something's looming in the air. No matter how perfect someone's life might look from the outside, or how green the grass looks from beyond, we all have darkness within us. We're all busy and life can be overwhelmingly noisy. Everyone's life has sucky moments. Everyone's struggling with themselves about some thing or another. It's part of being human. When you've been tested and pushed for too long, or held on too long to your problems and past disappointments, there's a voice within you that guides you. You have to learn to listen to that voice. When life is biting at you, weighing on you, if you're doubting yourself, or if you've gotten too comfortable with your own demons, that can only mean one thing: it's time to get out of those four walls, get some fresh air, and let the sun kiss your skin. You have to know when to step off your comfort zone. We all need that moment and space where we can unload all our troubles, one that doesn't create other problems. The world will take care of itself. Yeah, you'll still have the same shit to deal with when you return, but at least you'll see with your own two beautiful eyes that life does go on. — LRAEBROWN

Thursday, October 15, 2015

WHAT WE THINK


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I have read that great minds believe life's greatest demons reside within the souls of men. All our anger―our fears―our insecurities, and our constant doubts that haunt us, reside only within our minds. But, we've allowed our souls to believe these are our demons and that what we think is what we believe. Our reality is within our subconscious. But, we will never see it if we refuse to find focus.
If we'd only listen to our hearts, and pay closer attention to what's really important in our lives, we would find that the only instructions we've ever needed for a successful life are right in front of us. 


"Pain will teach you a lesson. Ego won't let you learn."


― LRAEBROWN

DO ALL THINGS WITH KINDNESS

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I once asked a group of friends: what's the difference between a dick and an asshole? The best answer I got was; "A "dick" is an "asshole" with purpose. It's intent driven to be a dickhole."

In our daily lives, contingent upon how much we put ourselves out there in the world, we will encounter people who's character just comes off as being a dickhole
Sometimes, people have no clue of the energy they share with others. They could be going through something horrifically challenging in their lives or just having a bad day. 
Sometimes, people derive upon purposely being a dickhole to anyone, to release or relieve their stress or ego on others. 
Whether it's an internal extension of what a person is going through, or their energy just emanates negativity purposely―understand, that it has nothing to do with you. Even if their chosen behavior, their respond or reaction of being a dickhole is intent driven towards you―understand, that it has nothing to do with you.
We behave, respond, react to people based on how we perceive anything. No matter how annoying it is to deal with someone, individually, we all have a choice how we respond, react, and if we want to be a dick or an asshole. Or we can choose to be a decent human being, and do all things with kindness. The energy we leave on the people we encounter, is an accurate prediction of our current reality, as well as our future. 
― LRAEBROWN

Wednesday, October 14, 2015

THE LUCKY ONES


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Many people never get the chance to tell the world their story while they're barely breathing. The truth is, people are unable to compose their thoughts, much less express their pain in practical words. Some of us can't survive our demons.
Most people hide―self medicate―use their ego as a shield.
I've seen it a million times.
They're always trying to re-invent the wheel on how to deal with their pain.

The most notorious of them, they take on the established character of a 'victim' as their stimulus. With their enormous wounds, they hide their grief in the shadows and call it survival, rather than letting the screams and tears come out of their pores like a cancer by using a keyboard or ink as a scalpel. But not me, not you, because we are the lucky ones.

We writers are unable to keep our poison in. We bleed out our pain between our fingers with words perfectly strung up into an anecdote. It's embedded within our skin, our blood, deep in the marrow of our bones. We have written out history on the worst acts of humanity that read like a love song on a piece of paper.
Each one of us: the writer, novelist, poet, biographer, columnist, editor, essayist, screenwriter, journalist, ghostwriter, we are the lucky ones. The blessed ones. The wizards of magical prose. We write about our visions, our life lessons, our own wounds, our nightmares, in a novel, an article, or a poem sparked by our imagination. Composing a story that can touch millions of souls is like giving life to another being. If we can complete our work being straight, sane, and sober, we, are the lucky ones.

― LRAEBROWN © 2014

I LOVE YOU



I love you.
But...I don't want to be your everything.

I don't want you to be afraid of losing me.
I don't want you to be passive aggressive. 
I don't need to know everything you're thinking of.
I don't want you to need me every second of the hour―day― week―month or year.
I don't want you to need me to breathe.
I don't need to tap into the deepest part of your soul.
I don't want to consume your being.
I don't need to be your sun, your star, and your moon.
I don't need to be your whole Universe. 
I have no need to embody your own  humanity.
That's not love, Baby. 
I hope you know my love for you is enough 
to be at peace with your own identity.
Your own personality to unfold. 
Your own mental space to explore. 
Your own world or demons to conquer. 
Your own goals and dreams to reach.
Your own breath to breathe.

I love you.
I love you enough to know that you being you, 
before I came along, is what will keep your love 
for me for all eternity.

If you don't know this already, 
you don't know how much I love you, Baby. 

― LRAEBROWN 

Dedicated to my son Alex.
Image artist: Tony Mazza
The Walnut Wall © 
@thewalnutwall 

Tuesday, October 13, 2015

CONNECTION



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Do you realize how small this world really is, and that we are connected to each other as close as a keyboard stroke?



Do you realize we have shared so much of our lives with each other through this thing called Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat―any and all of our social network vices?

We've shared our sonograms, our babies' births and first steps, our kid’s baseball home-runs, recitals, Halloween costumes, Birthdays, our drunk-pictures, our joys, successes and failures, as well as our insecurities, our banters on our best days and our worst. And sometimes...our losses. We know about each other’s happiness and sadness, our beliefs and disbeliefs 
of all things, good and bad. Our politics and our religion are open for any interpretation. We are an open book―vulnerable to the judgments of others, who can or can't read between the lines of the words we type.

Do you realize how much we can learn from each other, just by reading someone else's posts? Although some of us won't admit it, we all take something from it.
We all grow just a little bit more, and   we all learn something new.
As comfortable as our favorite pair of jeans, we willingly and excitedly share our daily lives with each other, with our family, near and far, with friends we've had for a lifetime, and the many we'll never have the honor to meet in person.

Priceless connections have been made just by our shared and exchanged compilation of pictures and words. Words that connect us, that whisper to our subconscious, “Hey, I’ve been through that too!”―“I know exactly what you mean!" and we comment and reply.


Some of us, in our daily reality, function and exist like a wrapped up rubber-band ball, yet, in this huge space called the internet, we allow our weaknesses and strengths to be validated by another soul, accepted with kindness by people whom we've never even met.
In return, all they've ever asked for is for you to reciprocate.

― LRAEBROWN © 2013


GUT INSTINCT


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Most, if not all, of my posts are related to a project―an article―a story that I'm working on. If for some reason my words relate to your life or your current situation, and your seeking for answers, the answer is within yourself. I'm not here to give you the answer or a solution to your problem. My agenda is to spark a thought in your mind. But that is not likely to happen if you don't follow your gut instinct. 

Instead of seeking an answer from others, you have to be able to calm the storm in your mind. Pay attention to what your gut is telling you. And maybe, just maybe, you'll find that the words you're reading or listening to aren't so much about learning anything. Maybe it's about letting go of your way of thinking and believing, that has yet to work for you once, although you've replayed it in your mind a hundred times.

Let's be honest, the more we try to convince someone of our reasoning based on our experiences, the more firmly entrenched (maybe for defensive purposes) they become in theirs. In our current culture, it's not easy for most people to make a logical decision on anything. Especially when any of our emotions are involved. 

The truth is: we no longer live in a society where the only thing we have to decide on are sticks or stones to make a fire, porridge or potatoes for dinner or, whether to marry someone whose family has more sheep and cows or someone else who is more fertile. 

We now have a variety of answers to choose from, and we use that variety mentality when making decisions, or to not make a decision. What was once our society's norm: choosing from right or wrong, logic and common sense versus bullshit, now contends with our being bombarded with words of advice, information, books, and movie characters that'll tell us what we want to hear. The selection we make is always based on our current beliefs. 

There's no magic trick, potion, or secret to creating your desired life. No amount of good writing can help you understand the answer you're seeking.

Everything starts with you and what's in your mind. In your imagination. In your daily conversations with yourself―your beliefs. Your thoughts hold everything in your world, which is to say what you will receive from the Universe: the favors you're asking for in your prayers, they all start with your thoughts. Whatever you constantly repeat in your mind, good or bad, is or will become your reality. It's as simple as that.

Most of the answers you need start with using logic and common sense. More important, follow your gut instinct first, before you buy into someone else's words. 

― LRAEBROWN © 2014

Monday, October 5, 2015

DEAR, TEACHERS, MENTORS, COACHES

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I was reminded, again, that not everyone who has questions and seeks answers can handle the truth. And I can honestly say, I've finally come to peace with this.
People are only as good as they are willing to know.
Many pretend well to want not to know more than they believe they can handle. Some are just looking for pity and attention. Those are the ones who will drain you of all your energy, no matter how strong you think you are.

There are going to be some people, no matter how much patience, grace, honesty, and kindness you bestow upon them, who are just not going to vibe with you through and through. Yet, they expect your words to constantly vibe with the energy they're hungry for.


Some people do not want more knowledge than what they're comfortable with. Although you might be giving them truth and facts and the most transparent evidence, too much truth can scare them.


"Change does not happen when we're comfortable."

Many are comfortable living in their beliefs and fantasies. Even if their reality is full of anger and fear. They're satisfied with their current reality, nothing more.

And if you dare to enlighten them, no matter how much they've trusted you

in the past or have faith in you,
they will turn on you.
They'll even mark you as disloyal or hurtful to their soul, simply because you've showed them or told them their truth.

Why? Because they're only as good as they are willing to know.

The very same people who hunger for change can often be the reason why there is no change occurring. Their fear and comfort are debilitating their reach for knowledge.


If there's a lesson to be learned here, it would be that even if you're an honest and generous teacher― mentor―coach, you'll have to accept and be at peace with this wisdom: people will only learn the lesson if they want to.


Peace be with you.


― LRAEBROWN 

Thursday, October 16, 2014

GENUINELY LOVED BY A MAN


I am grateful, in my lifetime, I was loved and adored by some of the most amazing, loving and generous men. 
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I am grateful for the love each one of them has shared with me and given to me. 
I am grateful that I've experienced the love of a man who would move mountains, light up the stars, and give me the universe in his hands. It's in that sharing and giving of themselves that taught me what it is to be a woman. There was joy and yes, even heartaches that comes with loving and losing someone. I am grateful for the pain I have experienced. Without it, I would not be the woman that I've become. I am grateful for the challenges and the lessons. The memories these men have given me are the stories of my life. Every man I have loved has written a paragraph or a story in my book. I am grateful for that once in a lifetime love that will never leave my heart. I am grateful for the passion, the tears and the emotions. Too many times it felt like a thousand horses charging at the core of my heart. These loves have been the ones whose set my heart on fire. They have challenged me not just to live, but to be alive!

When I reminisce on my past romances, it puts a smile on my face and warmth in my heart to know the feeling of being a woman, genuinely loved by a man. 

― LRAEBROWN

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF A WRITER: October 16, 2014

“What if we didn't have stories to reflect and reminisce on? What would be the point of existing all these decades, if we do not have the stories of our journey in this beautiful life? Even when some of the chapters were not so nice. Most of us do not care to face the reality, we will all be in our seventies and older one day. Some of us sooner than most. Fact is; we will all, one day be senior citizens.
Perhaps if we're lucky, we’ll be placed in a respectable nursing home, unable to fend for our basic human needs. But who will know our stories when we're old? Who will care to hear or read our journeys, struggles and how we've survived or conquered the same struggles that a young child will have themselves?
Will we walk the path alone with several characters along the way or will we choose to have one person who will write the story of our lives with us?
Do we have a choice to choose which option to have?" Or is it based on our faith?
― LRAEBROWN 


Monday, September 29, 2014

RANDOM THOUGHTS OF A WRITER: I Write


I write about the power of accepting yourself for who you are now, so you can hear what you need to hear to get out of your comfort zone, and your fears that you’ve called hell. 

When I write I want to know you’re comprehending what I’m really saying, not what you’ve heard in the past from false prophets and motivational quotes. 


I write so that you can pay attention to your desires and dreams and learn something new about yourself and perhaps make a conscious effort to learn something new every day so you can grow from within. 


I write because we need to come to peace with our past, failures, our insecurities no one else ever see -- so that we can move on from the self-inflicted judgements -- from our shame.  


I write about self-care and acceptance because I’ve suffered from lack of self-esteem and neglect, and not until I paid attention to what I needed instead of what I wanted, did I realize and understand who I am. 


I write about pain because I know what loss and suffering mean and how blissful happiness can feel. 


I write about faith because I’ve lost mine in the past, and I know what it is to be lost, broken and in need of redemption. 


I write about gratitude because I am thankful for all of this -- good and bad. I’m grateful for being a human being -- a woman.  


― LRAEBROWN

Grateful Child

Dear God
before I lay me down to sleep and rest my head in Your comfort, I want to tell you how grateful I am for the circle of women and men You have placed in my life. 

You have blessed me abundantly with these beautiful and amazing children and beautiful loving friends. You have bestowed upon me so much knowledge and love through them. 

My dear sweet Lord, thank you for the blessings You have surrounded me with.
Grateful child I am of yours for loving me so much.
Amen.


― LRAEBROWN

LET IT RAIN

Oh dear Godlet it rain. 
Break this heat. 
Cool this fire burning on my skin. 
Let me breathe again.

Oh dear God, let it rain. 
Let the winds blow on my hair. 
Let me see that fierce lightning in the sky. 
Let the thunder roar. 
Drench me with your tears. 
Cool this fire on my skin.

Oh dear God, let it rain. 
Let me breathe again.

― LRAEBROWN